i need to stop pretending i'm fine on here. i'm an idiot. a huge fricking idiot. i never do anything right. of course people think i'm disgusting and hate me. it's 2:30 AM and i've been dealing with crap for like, an hour. my friends hate themselves because of me. i always mess up, i feel like just ending my life to not have to deal with any of this anymore. so they won't have to deal with me.