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Unfortunately, the time has finally come...

I'm sad to report to ESB that I have made the decision to resign from chat moderator and rollback and retire permanently from ESB. Before I move on to the more major aspects though, let me just say: No, I'm not going to disable my account like I did before; I'll still be active on other FANDOM wikis, just not this one.

The reason I decided to leave this wiki is because I can't handle the amount of pressure it puts on me and interferes with my real-life schedule. I've wasted a vast majority of my free time ever since rejoining this wiki on editing here and putting off other priorities, hence how I've accumulated 20k+ edits in one year, which shows I really need a hobby. What am I doing here? I owe absolutely nothing to this wiki if my personal life is more important; I shouldn't let any events on a wiki affect me in real life, yet I've let that get the best of me numerous times. .__. I have a job in real life and a family to look after plus a more professional career and college education right on my pathway; I need to focus on pursuing these priorities and what the future has in store for me rather than sitting at the computer or phone all day. Now yes even though I've only recently turned 18 it may be a little too early to focus on my future right away and I should enjoy the freedom I have for the time being, but if said freedom is focused mainly on wasting my time online, then the real-life priorities should definitely be more favored. It's trivial for me to go on a wiki I increasingly lose interest in with each passing day if it's just making me feel bad and contributing nothing impactful to my daily routine. Also, I'm starting to lose interest in SpongeBob SquarePants. Not because the new episodes are terrible or anything, but because they just aren't as good as they once were; even seasons 8 and 9A were far better than the subpar quality of season 12. The show has long overstayed its welcome and should end with the third movie in my honest opinion. Plus, I'm an adult now and I'm slowly starting to outgrow things mainly aimed at kids. That's not to say that I don't watch cartoons anymore, because I very much do (even though it varies by show whether live-action is better), I just don't see myself fitting in the SpongeBob SquarePants fandom anymore as strongly as more mature cartoons and television series that are more popular among the peripheral teen and adult demographic.

Moving on to the wiki: Yeah, many of the problematic things I've stated in the past are the main cause of my retirement. There's a ton of stress and pressure that comes with being an active contributor to this wiki to the point where I want nothing to do with it anymore, such as users fighting and arguing on a daily basis, edit wars and daily addition of unconstructive edits that get annoying to constantly monitor, feeling overpowered by some of the staff when you don't feel comfortable confronting a situation, and most importantly, those jokes and memes that form 80% of this wiki's social side. I know it seems overdramatic for me to make this big a deal over things happening on a wiki that I can easily ignore, but it's practically impossible for me to ignore if I'm to confront such problematic occurrences on a daily basis in my striving to contribute here. Also, many people don't know this (because I've often kept it a secret due to my insecurities), but I'm autistic, and having autism goes hand-in-hand with my increased level of discomfort with the problems present on this wiki. This is why I get frustrated over the many jokes and memes on this wiki's social side that people are having way too much fun with, and I can't take it when someone tells me I'm overreacting to a joke. If this is what the social side of this wiki is just going to continue having for years to come, then I don't want to be a part of the community anymore.

Another reason is insecurities and a series of self-doubt. I seemed to be really desperate and power-hungry with the total amount of 4 assistant requests I made, which further proves how much I was wasting my free time on here. Now I no longer care about pursuing any kind of role here, and I'm much better off working for that goal at another wiki I don't go on as often. Now that I look back at my level of requests, all I see is desperation and impatience that I no doubt feel ashamed of. It makes me feel like such an idiot and I wish there was a way to go back in time and change everything that tarnished my reputation; yes, even those "booty jokes" people associate with me. I created such an awful meme... That's another reason I'm retiring: because people hardly take this wiki seriously anymore, rather it's reputable for being a meme comedy session rather than a SpongeBob database where people come to read and talk about the show. I know this is a virtual repeat of the point raised in my previous paragraph regarding the jokes, but still.

Farewell ESB, we've had some good times, some bad, a few in-between, but the good times we've had together I'll always cherish and never forget, but it has come to this: My time here is over, and I must focus my freedom on real life and my future, where I'll be gladly too busy with my personal life and managing my successful career and adult independence. Goodbye....  EmilyHReturns (MCBE)  01:49, July 27, 2020 (UTC) 

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